On Life

We all have our own stories to tell. We do. Whether you think you have one or not, you do, and I bet it's a fascinating one. My story, well, it's just starting I feel. Yes, it's been rolling for 21 years now, but I mean really starting. I'm coming into my own, trying to find myself and live life the best way I know how. My story is just beginning, and it's without a doubt rocky, at times tremendously frustrating - but I've got to say it's 
pretty fabulous so far...

I believe in living with passion. I believe that many things will catch our eyes, but only a few will catch our hearts, and we should always pursue them. And while on the rough and winding road of chasing and pursuing our dreams, I believe in believing in yourself, first and foremost. 

All my life I’ve wanted to be a veterinarian. Still to this day that’s all I want to be. I want so much, but it’s getting there that’s the hard part. To add to my stress of school, I am always missing home – my family, my friends. I'm always missing Cory more than anything. I’ve learned that I don’t do very well emotionally when I am completely alone. Yes, I have plenty of amazing friends but nothing compares to my family for me, and my best friend. They are my backbone and, looking back, they’re the reason I’ve had so many successes and accomplishments.

More times than not these days, I find myself frustrated, sad and annoyed with myself, school, and sometimes even life. At times I feel like I’ve lost myself and my clear cut vision of where I wanted to go and who I wanted to be. I’ve always been the kind of person who says, “I want to be that, I want to do that, I want to achieve that,” and I did it. Nowadays, I find myself saying, ‘maybe’, ‘I don’t know’, ‘we’ll see what happens’. I think the thing that’s the hardest for me to wrap my mind around is the fact that I find myself sometimes wanting to throw in the towel for no reason at all. I get really scared because sometimes I don’t even believe in myself. How am I supposed to get anywhere or do anything with that kind of mind set?

Bottomline, and we all know this - life is hard. However, I am finding that it’s hard on us for a reason, a much deeper reason that many of us many never realize. I don’t believe I have figured life out, nor do I think I ever will. But I think I’m figuring out how to make the most of my life with what life has given me and continues to throw my way.

Life is not always sunshine, blue skies and smiling faces. But at the end of the day, I can only thank God for
that! I know that without the struggle and the climb, nothing would be worth it. You would never feel how truly amazing that natural high feels when you do something that means so much to you and that you’ve given your heart, your soul, your sweat and tears to.

 Yeah, life is hard, finding our way is never easy, and life will knock you down so many times just to see how bad you want to stand. I feel, however, that life wants us to succeed, but wants to test the waters with us first before it grants us our wishes, our life long dreams. Everyday I feel like I grow up a little more and discover that, yes, I really can do anything I set out to achieve. But I think you’ve just got to roll with the punches, and take life day by day. And while missing someone is completely normal, and expected, I believe you can’t dwell on it. I remind myself that distance can never really separate two hearts that care. I just think of the memories and remind myself of how lucky I am to have this one person who is so special to miss.

I believe in living with passion, and pursuing your goals everyday. But, above all, and most importantly, I believe that you must always believe in yourself.
Perhaps on a sheet of paper we should all try this:
Write a one and a two down, as if you were making a list of two things.
For number one, write what you want your life to be.
For number two, write what it is.
These two things should be the same. If they're not, there is your clear cut starting point. 

I always have to be engaged in something that comes deeply from within me. Something that I love doing, something that means a lot to me, something that makes me be my best. I'm coming the realization that life is indeed flying by. It's not just my imagination - it's all really happening right before my every eyes. There are 24 hours in a day, but sometimes I am just not satisfied with that. Sometimes, there is just not enough hours in a day. But, it's scary for me. Where is the time going transcends into where is my life going? Time is inevitable, so I'm going to make the most of it with the things I see best fit.
I'm striving to live my life as simple and as beautifully as possible. You know, my ideal of what the 'richer things' in life are.  Isn’t that truly what the richer things in life are? Living your life’s passion, enduring amazing adventures, experiencing once in a lifetime events, growing and living in love, and capturing life’s secrets. 
Luxury is not a necessity to me, but beautiful, unique, priceless things are a must.

I'm also striving to live my life as unforgettable as possible. I think it really comes down to how bad you want your dream, how bad you want something and what you’re willing to do in order to get there. Every opportunity is really all in what you make of it. Any risk you take to better yourself really shouldn’t be regretted after looking back from where you have been and where it’s taken you. 

If I’ve spent my day doing everything I could to better myself in whatever it was I was doing, I am content. If I am happy and content with who I am, what I’ve done, where I’m going and who and what I have surrounded myself with, that’s all I can ask for. 

We all are making it in the world everyday the best we can and if you love the life you’re living -
Keep an open mind, open eyes, open heart.
"God put me on this earth to accomplish a certain number of things. Right now, I'm so far behind - I'll never die!" Unknown 

"Isn't that what being young is about? Believing secretly that you would be the one person in the history of man who would live forever..." Vanilla Sky

"I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see." John Burroughs

"Do not let your beauty come from the outside. Your beauty should come from the inside. It should come from the heart. This is the kind that lasts. Your beauty should be a gentle and quiet spirit. In God's sight this is of great worth and no amount of money can buy it." 1 Peter 3:3-4

"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense." Ralph Waldo Emerson

“Loss has been part of my journey, but it also taught me what was precious.” Message in a Bottle

"Find a purpose in life so big it will challenge every capacity to be at your best." David O. McKay

I found this, and will forever hold on to it. I hope it impacts you.

Go. Live - out loud.
Love always,